Whelp.... the timing couldn't have been better lol.
I just need a place to vent. Such a long story... but as for my current situation, I left my job last year due to personal reasons. Taking C next week and was going to start job hunting after. Funds are low, I'm kind of trying to climb out of a low point in life and so I have a LOT riding on passing this exam.
Don't want to bore you all with all the details. But I've been with my fiance since high school.... almost 9 full years now. Got engaged last year and we were supposed to be married in just a few months from now. We've had our ups and downs in the past....a little bit before I left my job last year, I caught her doing some shady shit which messed me up mentally for a while...probably part of why I quit in the first place. But after a LOT of investigation and finally being able to be comfortable that AT LEAST she did not do anything physical, I decided to try to forgive her because I truly do love her.
I just caught her betraying my trust again last nite (with a different person than before). Still no concrete evidence of anything physical but she has already crossed the line in my mind whether she did anything physical or not, especially since she knows how bad she hurt me the first time.
She does not know that I know anything. I am trying really hard to keep my cool for now...8 more days until my exam and I need to get my shit together now more than ever because the last thing I need when breaking up a 9 year relationship is to also be jobless and broke at the same time. So I am not going to confront her about anything til after my exam.
Part of why I am making this thread is to vent, but I am also really hoping to get some words of encouragement to help me keep it together...I really need to focus and study hard and pass C this time around but I am finding it very hard to focus right now.
Infidelity sucks, I would not ever wish these feelings on anyone
I just need a place to vent. Such a long story... but as for my current situation, I left my job last year due to personal reasons. Taking C next week and was going to start job hunting after. Funds are low, I'm kind of trying to climb out of a low point in life and so I have a LOT riding on passing this exam.
Don't want to bore you all with all the details. But I've been with my fiance since high school.... almost 9 full years now. Got engaged last year and we were supposed to be married in just a few months from now. We've had our ups and downs in the past....a little bit before I left my job last year, I caught her doing some shady shit which messed me up mentally for a while...probably part of why I quit in the first place. But after a LOT of investigation and finally being able to be comfortable that AT LEAST she did not do anything physical, I decided to try to forgive her because I truly do love her.
I just caught her betraying my trust again last nite (with a different person than before). Still no concrete evidence of anything physical but she has already crossed the line in my mind whether she did anything physical or not, especially since she knows how bad she hurt me the first time.
She does not know that I know anything. I am trying really hard to keep my cool for now...8 more days until my exam and I need to get my shit together now more than ever because the last thing I need when breaking up a 9 year relationship is to also be jobless and broke at the same time. So I am not going to confront her about anything til after my exam.
Part of why I am making this thread is to vent, but I am also really hoping to get some words of encouragement to help me keep it together...I really need to focus and study hard and pass C this time around but I am finding it very hard to focus right now.
Infidelity sucks, I would not ever wish these feelings on anyone
1 week left until exam C, just found out I'm going to have to leave my fiance
